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My life philosophy is to not have one; instead, I mold and reshape myself to experiences that attract me.
Last updated: 31-Dec-24@14:00-hrs Central Winnipeg time.
I am just an average person, humble and absolutely not opinionated. I accept people as they are. I don't believe in religions or societal dictates. My lifestyle is my choice, and I am not forcing it on those who disagree with it. I don't need to defend my beliefs to anyone. I do what feels right to me, and I strive to be respectful to those around me. I will walk my own path, and your approval or opinion is not needed!
My Take on Being a Transgender Woman and the LGBTQ+ Community
First and foremost, I wholeheartedly support the entire LGBTQ+ community and all its facets. That said, I differ from your average transgender woman in how I perceive myself. Let me explain:
While I'm transitioning from male to female, and my goal is for my body to look 100 percent female, my mind still retains a touch of male thinking—specifically, male logic, competitiveness, and life achievement goals. If I were to quantify it (and this, too, is male logic at play), I'd say I'm 85 percent female thinking and 15 percent male logic.
I am definitively not male. I don't possess a male body, male strength, or entirely male logic and interests (only that 15 percent male thinking).
So, am I a "real" woman? Personally, I don't think so. Then what am I, and why do I identify with "she/her" pronouns?
I believe I was born male with a dominant female psychology and being, and my male body is transitioning to female. I consider myself a "Feminine-HYBRID." My pronouns are irrelevant; you can call me whatever aligns with your ideology and beliefs. Your perspective is just that. What matters to me is my perspective only. Of course, I'm mindful of others: those who respect my path are my friends, and those who don't are entitled to their own views, to which I remain neutral. The preceding paragraph, incidentally, is the 15 percent male logic speaking.
In layman's terms, picture it this way: I have a 100% female brain in a male body. Societal programming conditioned me to be male. I understood this programming and acted on it to avoid disappointment, gain acceptance, and prevent ridicule. However, significant resistance built within my female mind from pretending to be male. Whenever I moved away from male into female expressions, this resistance vanished. My solution is to transform my male body into a female one. At this stage in my life, my male body cannot become 100% genetically female, but I can get it as close as possible using all available resources. Then comes the process of re-learning how to be female to override the male conditioning society ingrained in me since birth.
Given all this, I know I can never be a "pure" woman, even though my brain is 100% purely female. My behavior, physical movements, and voice are not entirely "pure" female. Furthermore, I will never be able to fully erase my male conditioning, which is why I consider myself a Feminine-HYBRID. Therefore, Sara is a Feminine-HYBRID, and her pronouns are she/her. Unlike males or females, Sara is a different kind of woman, and that comes with its own unique qualities (see "Relationship" in the menu).
Based on the above, I choose to identify as Feminine-HYBRID, meaning I'm no longer a full-fledged male, nor am I a pure female. However, since society primarily identifies individuals by what they see, I choose to identify as a transgender woman (she/her). This way, I don't have to explain what I've written here to every confused person I meet in real life.
I hope this makes sense to you.
Why Sara?
When I was seven years old, I looked like a girl. My silky hair ran down my cheeks, and my voice was so girlish. My parents' friends and people we met at the swimming club often thought I was a cute little girl. Everyone referred to me using girl pronouns. My dad sometimes even pulled my pants down just to prove I was a boy.
Most of my father's work colleagues were Japanese, and during our many trips to Japan, they used to call me a princess because I looked like a girl.
The Japanese translation for "princess" had an example sentence that included the name Sarah. However, the Japanese word for "princess," when pronounced, did not sound like Sarah.
I was given the option to choose either the Japanese word for "princess" or the Japanese word that sounded like the name "Sarah." My little seven-year-old girl brain chose the Japanese word that sounded like "Sara" ("Sa-Ra" "セラ" or "サラ" in Katakana Japanese when pronounced). So, my name became "Sara セラ." Whenever my dad's group of Japanese engineers saw me, they all greeted me as Sara.
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My life philosophy is to not have one; instead, I mold and reshape myself to experiences that attract me.
Last updated: 31-Dec-24@14:00-hrs Central Winnipeg time.
I am just an average person, humble and absolutely not opinionated. I accept people as they are. I don't believe in religions or societal dictates. My lifestyle is my choice, and I am not forcing it on those who disagree with it. I don't need to defend my beliefs to anyone. I do what feels right to me, and I strive to be respectful to those around me. I will walk my own path, and your approval or opinion is not needed!
My Take on Being a Transgender Woman and the LGBTQ+ Community
First and foremost, I wholeheartedly support the entire LGBTQ+ community and all its facets. That said, I differ from your average transgender woman in how I perceive myself. Let me explain:
While I'm transitioning from male to female, and my goal is for my body to look 100 percent female, my mind still retains a touch of male thinking—specifically, male logic, competitiveness, and life achievement goals. If I were to quantify it (and this, too, is male logic at play), I'd say I'm 85 percent female thinking and 15 percent male logic.
I am definitively not male. I don't possess a male body, male strength, or entirely male logic and interests (only that 15 percent male thinking).
So, am I a "real" woman? Personally, I don't think so. Then what am I, and why do I identify with "she/her" pronouns?
I believe I was born male with a dominant female psychology and being, and my male body is transitioning to female. I consider myself a "Feminine-HYBRID." My pronouns are irrelevant; you can call me whatever aligns with your ideology and beliefs. Your perspective is just that. What matters to me is my perspective only. Of course, I'm mindful of others: those who respect my path are my friends, and those who don't are entitled to their own views, to which I remain neutral. The preceding paragraph, incidentally, is the 15 percent male logic speaking.
In layman's terms, picture it this way: I have a 100% female brain in a male body. Societal programming conditioned me to be male. I understood this programming and acted on it to avoid disappointment, gain acceptance, and prevent ridicule. However, significant resistance built within my female mind from pretending to be male. Whenever I moved away from male into female expressions, this resistance vanished. My solution is to transform my male body into a female one. At this stage in my life, my male body cannot become 100% genetically female, but I can get it as close as possible using all available resources. Then comes the process of re-learning how to be female to override the male conditioning society ingrained in me since birth.
Given all this, I know I can never be a "pure" woman, even though my brain is 100% purely female. My behavior, physical movements, and voice are not entirely "pure" female. Furthermore, I will never be able to fully erase my male conditioning, which is why I consider myself a Feminine-HYBRID. Therefore, Sara is a Feminine-HYBRID, and her pronouns are she/her. Unlike males or females, Sara is a different kind of woman, and that comes with its own unique qualities (see "Relationship" in the menu).
Based on the above, I choose to identify as Feminine-HYBRID, meaning I'm no longer a full-fledged male, nor am I a pure female. However, since society primarily identifies individuals by what they see, I choose to identify as a transgender woman (she/her). This way, I don't have to explain what I've written here to every confused person I meet in real life.
I hope this makes sense to you.
Why Sara?
When I was seven years old, I looked like a girl. My silky hair ran down my cheeks, and my voice was so girlish. My parents' friends and people we met at the swimming club often thought I was a cute little girl. Everyone referred to me using girl pronouns. My dad sometimes even pulled my pants down just to prove I was a boy.
Most of my father's work colleagues were Japanese, and during our many trips to Japan, they used to call me a princess because I looked like a girl.
The Japanese translation for "princess" had an example sentence that included the name Sarah. However, the Japanese word for "princess," when pronounced, did not sound like Sarah.
I was given the option to choose either the Japanese word for "princess" or the Japanese word that sounded like the name "Sarah." My little seven-year-old girl brain chose the Japanese word that sounded like "Sara" ("Sa-Ra" "セラ" or "サラ" in Katakana Japanese when pronounced). So, my name became "Sara セラ." Whenever my dad's group of Japanese engineers saw me, they all greeted me as Sara.
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